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Name: Yume
Age: 21
Likes: sleeping, daydreaming, writing, reading, collecting manga and anime, video games, cool weather, being with friends.
Dislikes: Liars, backstabbers, people who are full of themselves, bugs, spiders, school, mornings, headaches, people who don't speak their mind
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Time: 5:00 PM
Day: 10/28/08
Feeling: Sick, Anxious, Stressed, Cuddly, Confused, Upset
Hearing: Jim Croce - Time in a Bottle
Surfing: Roleplayers Guild
Chatting: No onez.
Eating: Beef Stroganoff soon...
Drinking: Nothin'.
Watching: MaiHime, This Ugly Yet Beautiful World, Witchblade
Downloading: Nothing.
Playing: Tales of the Abyss
Reading: 'Swan Song' by Robert R. McCammon
Wanting: A genie with three wishes..., Clayton, Money
Admiring: Clay-Clay. :3
Anticipating: zomgzexytiem.
Procrastinating: Studying, homework, life in general.
Loving: Clayton, Trauma, Nicolai, Guy.
Hating: That its five already...
Quote Of The Day: "If you dig it, do it. If you really dig it, do it twice." - Jim Croce
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I'm Dying Within You
Kamui-ness for the...oh...tenth layout for Lost Dreamers. In...."honor" or something to my RP character, Rath (who looks like Kamui). Because recently...the poor boys been through alot, and I thought I'd put up a nice fittin' layout for him. ^oo^ So perrrty. ::pets::
The World Where I Exist
10.29.08.//Memories...
Seeing the person you love most cry... Its hard. I can't even explain how it feels... It came from nowhere, or at least, I hadn't seen it coming...
Anyway. We took a drive through Davison yesterday. Its something personal, and between us, so I figure I really don't want to go into it. There were just so many things I wanted to say though, and none of them sounded like they'd be right... The way things are right now, none of it would have been comforting the way I wanted it to be. But I suppose, sometimes, you can't pull through the way you ideally want to. He talked a lot about his family... I find it so cool that they came from Germany. *big Germany fan* As I'm sure some people already know...
He's been through a lot of hard things, too, but I can't help but be a little envious of how much he's done. I mean, he actually knows the names of more than a small handful of family members. I remember when we went to their little family reunion, and he was introducing me to everyone, I think he brain farted on like, one person. We drove past his grandmas house and his uncles house, and he pointed out a fence he and his mom helped his uncle put up and paint... For some reason, just that little piece of memory made me... happy, in a bittersweet sort of way. It wasn't like it was anything big... but it was a memory of something... human? Its extremely difficult for me to find the right word... Something ordinary, something people DO, something... I never did.
He also told me about how when he was really little, he'd sit in a wheel barrow, and his great grandpa would pile pears all around him... and that he could eat as many as he wanted as long as his great grandma didn't find out, since she wanted to can them...
Do I have memories like that? Can I just... not remember them? I know I have a horrible memory, I can't remember a lot of things for some reason. It makes me sad... I mean... My mom and dad moved so far from the rest of the family, so its not like I ever really had much of a choice. I guess I can kind of see how my upbringing did it to me, not to... knock on my parents or anything, but neither of them are very social people at all... They have their circles of friends at work that I'd hear about, but... that's been the extent of it for a long time. I remember back when Ricky was alive, or a few of my dads friends that we'd see on vacation, typically snowmobiling, or in the summer when we went on Ricky's pontoon, or jet-ski's... but...
I wonder if it'd be easier if I just took a Luke approach to things... 'I shouldn't be upset about things I can't remember', right? I guess its a bit different though, since I remember things, but it all just seems like pointless things... All of my memories are stuck right here, in this house, in this neighborhood, in this shitty little town... He sits there and talks about living in Davison, Royal Oak, Flint, Burton, and wherever the heck else...
Maybe its just the surmounting stress... but more and more... I just want to leave.
Still, I do know one thing. Ever since he and I have started going out, I've been making tons of new memories. I mean, its not like I don't have memories with friends and family from over the years, but its somehow different... I guess this past summer was just so... adventurous, memorable. I don't ever want to forget it. The parties, the friends, the trips, the long walks...
I guess it really is all karma...
10.8.08.//So... much... change...
God... there really has been since the last time I posted. Yesterday I think I realized the meaning of existance. I was a little... under the influence though, so its a bit more hard for me to grasp than it was when I was wobbly-minded, which is... always weird. I swear though, it all made sense. And I can still GET it in my head, but it doesn't seem nearly as impacting. But I may just have finally understood something. And in a way, I think, for MYSELF, I grasp a certain concept of time. But anyway. This all sounds like psycho-babbling right now, so I'll just stop.
Clayton and I went and saw 'Eagle Eye' yesterday, and it was pretty interesting, since earlier we'd been hanging out with/talking to Paul, Keaton's neighbor, and he'd been talking about all of those conspiracy theories and everything. It was actually pretty outrageously awesome to hear... Though, by the end of it, I felt like I was going to get sniped by government agents or some shit. o_O;;;
Really though, I'm not quite feeling like updating anymore... LOL, that passed quickly enough. :/
5.4.07.//Lethargic... apathetic...
My throats hurting so damn bad lately... I need to start taking my freakin' zyrtec every single night, I'm sure that'll help... Such a hassle... All winter long I take tons of pills so that I don't get sick, and now, winters gone... Flu season and all that GOOD stuff has passed... and I have to take MORE pills to keep me healthy for DIFFERENT reasons. -___- I should just live in a goddamned bubble, I swear.
I would also like to point out that I think fish really is a good thing for diets. o__o Really! I mean, back when I ate fish like, every single day, I did not eat NEARLY as much. I read something about how they said fish takes longer to digest, so you don't feel hungry so often, or something like that. I mean, I JUST freaking ate and I don't feel fulfilled. Then again, it ALSO probably has something to do with my sleep schedule. I noticed when I sleep quote-unquote "normally", I didn't eat as much, because I was staying awake and sleeping as much as I should have been... not staying up longer and making my body burn up more food and all that whatnot. I definately don't feel as active or motivated either... Just so, so tired and lethargic all the time. It basically sucks. I get inspired more during the night, but I feel more... "alive", I guess you could term it, during the day.... ~ - ~;;;
Oh! That kinda reminds me... I got Shadow of the Colossus. >D Sweet game. Definately different from anything I've ever played before... I talked about it at my game-review site, Forbidden Afterglow. Today, I finally beat the frickin' first colossus. It was quite a sense of accomplishment to watch it go down, really... When you've scaled this huge ass fucker, and are on top of its freaking HEAD, clinging for dear LIFE and trying to stab it in the skull with your sword... When it spurts out its blood, and finally just... crumbles to the ground... Knowing that after far too many trial-and-error runs... I had SUCCEEDED. *sigh* It wasn't even that it was extremely difficult either... It just involves quite a bit of patience and... precision. o__O; So, SO much fun though. And you can't save at all, until after you defeat a colossus. Luckily, you can retry immediately from the start of the Colossus' appearance if you die in combat with it. And of course, there are no random battles whatsoever, just you, your horse, some BEAUTIFUL land, and a bunch of Colossus... Its so much fun, and inspires me ALOT.
What did that have to do with fish and sleeping? ... Uhm... Hm... >__>;; Oh well! :D I need to post... at a lot of places... my inspiration feels like its slowly being drained again... and I've been thinking about directing my attention back towards GD... I guess I should get to that...
In other, unrelated news... Everytime I look at Lelouch it ruins my day. ; _ ; Well, it makes me infinately happy, because I fucking love him... but then all of my plotties come to mind. I didn't realize just how... intergrated I had made his and the Shiseiken's plot with so many other characters and plots... And now all of the sudden, I've hit a brick wall. It seems like everything is slowly but surely [as I realize] coming together, and the Shiseiken were meant to "symbolize" that in a way... they were the ones looking for what everyone else is looking for directly... The representation, and the ultimate product of everything. The clan that ties-together all of the clans...
I thought I'd come to terms with it... I figured I'd just have the Shiseiken be "background" characters who would be referenced to at times, but then the whole idea of doing that just irritated me. "Oh well, today the Shiseiken did this and that and this, we'll update with more when our news anchor checks in, back to you Tom." -___-; Then the more I think about it, the more and more they matter, and the more blocked I get from being able to do some decent posting. Oh well, I guess. I've found creative ways around shit Williams tossed at me, that should serve as a tribute to my improvising abilities, right? ^^;
In other, slightly-related news, as I was mentioning earlier.... kinda... I keep getting closer and closer to GD-inspiration again. * ~ * I was thinking about aiming a lot of my recent plot ideas and whatnot for that. I don't really think the Shiseiken would do too well there... but then, they'll have their role in OVERLORD... and probably in the Stargate RP. AHH!! This day just got SUBSTANTIALLY WORSE!! T _ T *just fucking missed the new Stargate SG-1 episode* T _ T I think I'm going to vomit...
Hm, this has been a rather rant-acular rant... o__O; Not bad if I don't say so myself. But! If nothing else! Its an update~! :D
4.9.07.//Whoot. Update!
Yeah, I don't know... I just felt like there was a need to update this bugger. Got nothing particularly important or interesting to say [though I was SURE I did]...
...I got an A-Star on SAKURA [Light Mode]. Of which I am QUITE proud [this being on DDR for the illiterates]. And~! It snowed! I cannot express how happy I was. Even if it was just a little bit, to see some snow... That winter just flew by, and it made me SO, so sad... So I got to see some snow at least once more. ^ _ ^
I guess the business with Kataku [my character based off of Lelouch, CODE GEASS] isn't too bad. >D I'm getting inspired to write an online story just for him and his clan... Which will of course involve the Kasai, Lucavifate, and potentially the Donavan's as well. Sadly it'll mean I won't be able to bring the Shiseiken too deeply into FS itself, but they'll still be mentioned and have a big impact from the shadows, which I think will work nicely... They won't be in the front like you'd expect important characters to be, so it'll be an interesting take, or so I hopes. So it'll be good fun. >D [I keep saying "bright side", Trauma keeps saying "denial"].
In other RPing news though, WHEW, finally got the Stargate RP going. >B I'm so psyched, Kyoki-chan and I are in that "can't stop posting" phase. >D I never imagined the day I'd see her Lannie-chan [Er, AKA Lan Orion] interacting with fricking Teal'c... so its quite amusing, but I've just got so many ideas and fun plot ideas for it. >D Ugh... Which reminds me of the Curse I have planned for FS... And makes me anticipate that... Somehow the two make me desperate for the other... >D Its pretty great. Strange, but good.
On the school subject now... T _ T; I lost so much sleep that night trying to figure out what to do with Kataku-kun... I ended up missing that big fucking katakana test, and the Location Verb Quiz... So I'm PRAYING my teacher will let me make them up... ; ~ ; My parents are going to kill me... *will have to blame it on insomnia* But now I'm aching to do so much... Writing GD, ZK:A, Shiseiken, posting at FS and SE... ; ~ ; I love my class and all, but I really can't wait til its over, either... Mmm... break...
Tahahah! [Don't know, just a burst of evil inspiration. I can't wait to torment Eris... :D]
1.9.07.//Lookie! Minimal Annoyed Complaining! :D
Hmm, I realize nine times out of ten all I do is bitch here... And its usually about stupid stuff. Don't you just love to look back on stupid posts and LAUGH at yourself? ¬ - ¬
But in any case, things haven't been too bad lately. I'm finally getting my college classes started, after a nice year-long break. :D I'll be taking a Japanese course, and a Distance-Learning english course, just to start things off easy... I just hope the english class doesn't kill me... I absolutely despise having to write "structured" papers... Or whatever ya'd call 'em. You know, where they give you a topic... and you have to go off of that. Sometimes its alright... I suppose... But the best ones I ever saw were in creative writing classes where you had alot of freedom. And I think I'm taking a similiar class to one my sister took... I know its the same teacher... And she had to write about... beauty, and marketing ads or whatever. - ~ - But! I'm hoping my Japanese class will be fun. It might be a bit on the difficult side (kanji and the like has always intimidated me ) but I'm thinking how many people in that class... Are going to be like me, and love the same sorta things I do? Maybe I'm just being naive, but... Then again, I saw some of their projects on the walls of the hall and there were pictures of moogles and important Japanese phrases to use in Final Fantasy XI... Well, lets just cross our fingers.
Education aside: VIDEO GAMES~! Still haven't gotten my ass around to beating FFXII... Even though I COULD. I could probably dance around Vayne's ass and then give it the boot ONCE and be done with it... But... Tales of the Abyss... has warped my brain. ; ~ ; It reminds me of the simple days... Not sure what that means exactly, but its just too fuuuunnnn~~~ I played TotA for about a week or so, and then was like "Crap it, I NEED to beat FFXII." put the game in, looked at it... Looked at my characters on the screen and... my brain started bleeding... ; ~ ; It wasn't that the controls confused me or anything, on the contrary, it was really easy to go from Tales back to FFXII, but the actual gameplay.... the sudden graphic-switch... the overwhelming angst and complete LACK of humorous skits in which characters argue over whos got the biggest breasts and glomp woman-fearing-men... There are just some things that we must admit, FFXII lacks. * ~ * Like Guy. >D
I'm at probably what looks to be the... climax-ish area of the game... Just doing some sidequests and the like right now... But Kyoki-chan [my cousin] is over right now, and RPing and DDRing rules our lives. I have become a DDR addict... I've also! Become a StarBucks addict!!! ; ~ ; But... the addiction is less severe than most. I'm just addicted to their hot chocolate. * ¬ * So damn nummy... (like Guy) Mmmm... And its snowing out... That makes me wanna warm up some apple pie, sip on some hot cocoa, and cuddle up with that sexy, woman-fearing man.... Sadly.... theres that whole "woman-fearing" bit... ; ~ ;
Another unfortunate THING that is keeping me from defeating the glory that is Tales of the Abyss... brought to my home like a PLAGUE by my beloved cousin... Is my newly-revived, fervant worshipping of fucking NARUTO... Goddamn, addictive NINJAS... ; ~ ; All I wanna do, is beat my game... But then I can bombarded with obssessions over Kakashi... and Sasuke... and Genma... And... there are just too many sexy ninjas in the series damnit. So of course, now, I want to work on both Naruto AND Tales of the Abyss fanfics, but feel like I am unable to do neither do to the fact that I've completed neither, and Naruto is still ongoing... ; ~ ; Why can I not go back to those days when I just read ALL the spoilers and said to hell with it and gung-ho leapt in to writing fanfics like a crazy woman? I think trying to become a professional writer has made me more slow and cautious about my writing patterns. v.v
Which brings me to 'Guardian Demon', which I haven't wrote in QUITE awhile. And I NEED to. For if I don't... Then I won't... And thats bad. >__> I think the idea of trying to get published is just really intimidating me. I found a couple of interesting publishers... Most of them you need an agent or the like to even get considered... But I've found a few that ACTUALLY accept FULL manuscripts... But of course, the chances that mine would be picked out of the MILLIONS, is probably slim to none. But alas... I must preservere, for the love of my Trauma-chan! * ~ * *cuddles on Trauma-kins*
Oh! And~ Heres a doozy of an update! My sisters pregnant again! Whoopee! Lets all rejoice!! -___- (I'm making it sound like shes a slut again... I always feel badly when I do that... but when she acts like a fricking bitch, I could care less.) I mean, I realize shes pregnant, and moody, but she REALLY takes it all for-granted and acts like the whole damn world should revolve around her. Like the other day when my dad brought home food for me and my mom, and my sister and Christian had been sleeping ALL DAY... So he didn't get her anything. And she complained. Like a bitch. And I mean, alright, thats happened to me before, where I woke up and there was no food for me and I was mighty displeased... But in retrospect, we're ADULTS now... We can make our own damn food. Not to mention, shes pregnant, nine times (more like 9.9999999+) times out of ten, what we're eating, doesn't sound good to her at all. So why waste the money?
But I don't wanna complain about her! What I wanna do! Is love and worship Guy... And make hot cocoa...
9.18.06.//Absurd..just...bloody absurd.
I swear, my mother has no faith in me. We had a GOOD day today. We were PEACEFUL today, we all acted CIVIL today, and no one argued, no one got overly hissy with someone else. We actually co-existed. And quite well, if I don't say so. But dear lord, as if that could last.
So mother comes down and starts throwing a fit, telling me how we need to clean my room because the guys are coming on Friday (like, you know, they were supposed to come the Friday of a month or so ago. -_-) to lay my carpet down, FINALLY. So, cleaning my room, means taking...EVERYTHING out of my room. Now, my mother doesn't seem to understand something...something very, very simple...
If she takes my PS2 and t.v. ...if she takes all of my notebooks (of which there are only a FEW at the moment I'm actively using)...if she takes the things I'm currently drowning myself in...I WILL GO INSANE. What the hell am I supposed to do? When its two in the morning, and I'm sitting in an empty room...What? She just doesn't get it.
And then she sits there and complains that I won't do it if shes not there to yell at me to do it. -__- She says I didn't do a DAMN thing. Hokay. I had a WHOLE bag FILLED with trash, I had three out of six drawers, (the WORST out of the six mind you) CLEANED OUT. COMPLETELY. And you wanna know how long it took me to get the others cleaned out? Hmm? Less than a minute. LESS THAN A FUCKING MINUTE. She'll sit there talking about how "She has no time, and doesn't wanna be doing all of this at the last minute." Well gee, thats right, you don't have time, but....I do. Vwalah, problem fucking solved.
And thats not even what really gets me. Sure as I'm sitting there I'm fucking pissed, but as I finally calm down, and I'm sitting there, organizing things...Shes sitting there, talking about how this is no way to live. And I'm trying to explain to her...this is how -I- live. The only reason it looks so fucking SHITTY, is because it all got interupted and I have to throw everything everywhere else to get it out of her way. And so shes blabbing about how this is no way to live, and I'm just like, "Thanks for saying my way of life sucks." and she just repeated herself, saying this wasn't my life. Well she really must not know me too damn well. I think my way of life is pretty good, thankyouverymuch. I don't do drugs, I don't sneak out late at night and do crazy shit that'd shorten her life by a few years, I'm sure, I don't hurt myself in anyway, I don't need any REAL mental help, I take care of myself just fine. I'm stable. Even if its not the way most people would think, or choose to be, STABLE, I AM stable. I'm alive and I'm TRYING. Apparently...thats just stupid.
Not to MENTION, she called me an ASSHOLE. Which thank you very much, I WILL be an asshole, if you come downstairs YELLING at me, LIKE AN ASSHOLE. Be an asshole, I'll give you one back. But whatever, I'm done now. Because shes going in my room, and I'd rather not have her mess something up...
4.20.06.//Suckage.
I'm not gonna rant and ramble why I hate this day so much...but really...I didn't realize today was today for a long while. So I think this day is just cursed for me or something. Though...I know of some other people who have it harder, so I'm not gonna go on and on about the day itself...just the fact that today, sucked. -_- Of course, the level of suckage could be do to the fact that...I've been bleeding from my vagina for the past week, thanks to a supposed, mythological or not ancestor who had to have the SPECIAL fruit, someone I will probably never get to smack upside the head, or at least flip off...A fact that further disgruntles me...
But enough about that. I wake up, and go out to see my entire family sitting there. I'm still dazed, confused, and hardly seeing straight because of the mind-blowing (Trauma: ^.^v) deep sleep I was in...But you know, its nice. To go out, and chill with your family. Of course, today, I think they were all out to GET me. Dad informs me that hes sorry, why you ask? Because he went out and got food and everyone else ate it all. -_- Thanks.
Payback Number 1: Take all the last three yummy Oreo pack THINGS (you know those little '100 Calories' packs...those. Fucking delicious.) And store them in my room, leaving the empty box there for someone to go "Oh, that sounds good~" *reaches into empty box* "Fuck." xP
Ahem. Then, not moments later, my mom smiles at me...and goes "You just woke up, didn't you?" all sympathetic like. How nice, someone who seems to understand. Considering I DID tell her how I was feeling shitty because of my Mythological-or-Not-Ancestor's Curse. Fucking fool I was to think that. Next thing out of her mouth. "Theres some dishes waiting for you." -_- Like I didn't just do some the other day.
Well, the day was passed in relative solitude, as I gleefully played my Suikoden V. Oh my glorious Suikoden V...such a bright spot in my life. *.* *cuddles Ernst* ^o^
So, later on, about 9:30 or so, dad and I go to get some pizza and to get me some chocolate milk (because oh yeah, Kerri gave Christian one of MY chocolate milks). So I get home, play a little more SuikoV, and then go wash the dishes. Afterwards, I amble downstairs...Now. I have not been on, as some of you know, that much at ALL lately. (Thats right, another of THESE rants). Well. Kerri was on. I get my PJ's, ask her kindly if she's going to be on much longer, since...she already put Christian to bed. She said no, she was about to get ready for bed. Translation: Another half hour or so. -_-
Ok, maybe I'm just your typical biased younger sibling...but dear god. She has had, HOW much time to get on the computer whenever she wants? I mean, for awhile there, I was hardly even home, and then, I bury myself in video games. Not to mention...upstairs is hell-hot. And...the basement is nice and cold. So I chill in the basement for a little, waiting for her to get off, but at the same time, not really CARING -THAT- much...because its so damn nice and cold.
Well finally, after like, ten, fifteen minutes or so -I may or may not be exaggerating, but the way I see it, time is an illusion. The numbers on the corner of the screen have no bearing on the moment you're going to die, or a life will be born. Thus. If it felt like ten or fifteen minutes, it was ten or fifteen minutes, TO ME. So eat it. xP- Anyway. So I finally just stand up, and go upstairs. Hell with it, I'm taking a shower.
Apparently. The. Fuck. Not. I'm sitting there, taking my one good shit of the day and writing out battle strategies for SuikoV, quite peacefully, when she comes up and starts knocking on the door "What are you doing?" Uh. Getting in the shower. "I WAS JUST GONNA GET IN THERE." Saw that coming. She was all "You were gonna get on the computer~!" And I'm just like "yeah, and you were on it." whats her logical response? "So?" .......... *sigh* So, theres a long pause -me on one side not knowing a logical response to "HERS". So shes all "I haven't taken a shower all day." "Good, neither have I." Then she starts throwing a fit as I'm squeezing out my next turd, about how she needs to get up in the EARLY ASS MORNING to go to some shit I could give two squirts of piss -oh, speaking of which- less about. So I'm just like "Thats good, I'm shitting right now." So she throws some hissy about how I need to get out so she can get in real fast. Or something.
From here, she goes off like the mature 26-or-so adult woman she is, bitching and groaning all around the house. I only caught a few profanities here and there, nothing much. But still. And there I sat, perfectly calm, debating my next move. It was all in my hands afterall. I could give her the royal FUCK YOU, and wipe my ass and get in the shower, or I could play it smart. Give her the shower. Be the patient child. And then one day, when she finally thinks her hollering and cussing is gonna get her somewhere. Shove my SHIT IN HER FUCKING FACE.
Opted for the latter, btw. May have hurt my ego a bit, but one day, the victory will taste all the sweeter.
3.21.06//Anime and Video Game Rants!
*sigh* I swear, since its been released, I've watched the opening for Final Fantasy XII...far too many times...And I have to say, out of all the others, its probably ranking as my favorite. Just as Ashe is now my undisputed favorite female character. I care what no one says, I care not if I haven't played the game yet, I LOVE HER. *cuddles the nonexistant version of Final Fantasy XII she SO TOTALLY "owns"*
Trauma: She's deluded.
xP Anyway. Truly, this has got to be my favorite opening for a Final Fantasy yet. VIII and X were great, I know, but this opening just...as someone said, feels more like the opening to a movie than anything else, and it works. Really, now that I think about it, everythings pretty much in this order: Final Fantasy XII, Final Fantasy VIII, Final Fantasy X. Of course, VII remains an undisputed favorite, but opening and main lead female-wise, thats the order my favorites go, cuz it goes 'Ashe, Rinoa, Yuna'. xD Anyway, all that pointless stuff aside, THE OPENING!!!! If you don't like to be spoiled, I wouldn't read any far, but I personally don't see how the OPENING is a spoilor....considering...its, gonna be the first goddamn thing you see ANYWAY. And really, its pretty much stuff everyone knows.
So anyhow, Ashe and Rasler kickass. I was so happy, because as I made clear, I love Ashe, and I adore Rasler, and thus, I am happy. I never thought there'd be another couple I approved of after Cagalli and Athrun, seeing as its just...such a rare thing...But I love AshexRasler....of course, my only PROBLEM with it is....HE FUCKING DIES. -___- *stews* Before I watched the opening, I was in utter denial. I wouldn't believe he was dead, and made up little stories to help me sleep at night. Maybe he survived and is only missing, maybe he has amnesia, maybe, maybe, maybe....Maybe fucking not. -_- Now, I can't deny it....especially considering they showed him in his fucking coffin. ; ^ ; It depresses me so. And then I was thinking, how fun and interesting it could have been if Rasler had been one of the main characters in your party, and had amnesia so he didn't remember Ashe, and so on and so forth. Needless to say, as soon as I have a GOOD grasp on all of the characters' personalities, I'm writing a fucking fanfic. xP *cuddles Ashe and Rasler* Really, theres not much else that can be said concerning it, see? That wasn't so spoilorific, was it?
*flails* Stupid S-E. I'm a member of this board where they're pointing out all the problems they're having. Oh, like, delays? Here we have Kingdom Hearts II THREE MONTHES after its Japan release date, and we have to wait fucking seven or so for Final Fantasy XII, one of its BIGGEST titles. I mean, come on! How long does it REALLY take? And then, when Square Enix was created, one of the things they said, was that shipping games out faster would be one of the fine points of the partnership...yet the only thing I see is more and more fucking delays. I'm telling you, it pisses a girl off. We've been waiting since what, 2000? I think I'm gonna be sick...I NEED MY FINAL FANTASY!!
Trauma: You wanna Final Fantasy? Close your eyes and I'll send you flying across the room.
_-_ This blows. GIMME MY FFXII!!!! GIVE ME MY ASHE-SAMA!! I'M GONNA ACCIDENTALLY READ SPOILORS FOR THE WHOLE DING-DARNED THING BEFORE I GET A HOLD OF THE ACTUAL GAME, BITCHES!!! *hyperventilates and dies*
Final Fantasy XII aside, I saw the ending for Fullmetal Alchemist. More spoilors for those who don't wish to be spoiled. But who doesn't like getting spoiled sometimes, ne? Lol. Anyway. Awesome ending, the kind that makes your chest puff up and ache for more. I can't WAIT to see the movie, and I can't WAIT to get the whole series on DVD so I can plop my ass down and watch ALL of it. ^oo^ I swear though, I was quite happy with it. I ended up getting spoiled and told that Ed died, which, I didn't want to believe, but I was happy when I later -spoiled myself again- and found that he doesn't die. Because he's Ed. And Ed is god. xD But it would have been SO much funner if I hadn't known he lived and THEN saw the ending...yeah..I can only imagine my response "HE'S NOT FUCKING DEAD!!HESNOTDEADHESNOTDEAD~!!!" >__> That'd be me. Anyhow. GREAT ending. Roy and Riza remind me of Sakura and Dauragon OOOOOH so very muchly. ; ^ ; I luffs them. And Al~! So cute~! It was so strange hearing him talk without his bowl though~! For those who don't know, a bowl is apparently what they call the thing he talks through to get that mechanical sounding voice. I don't know the specifics, I just watch the actor commentary thankyewverymuch. Aaaaand I think thats all.
Nope~!!! Howl's Moving Castle is LUFF. OMFG. I've watched that movie so many times since I got it, its not even funny. And I only got it a couple days ago. And I mean, I NEVER watch movies that much. Maybe if I had Advent Children I would, but I really don't think I have EVER watched a movie (since like, my childhood days) one day. And then go to sleep. Wake up. And watch it again. Never. Not for a LONGASS time. With Howl's Moving Castle, I CAN. I so totally wanted to see it back when it was in theatres, but sadly, never got a chance. I swear, it has become my favorite movie, EASILY. Above Domino, above Chronicles of Narnia, above Fight Club and King Arthur. And dear LORD do I want to use some of the ideas from it for FS, (zomg, SO many ideas) so I'm gonna have to corrupt Rachel...though I doubt that'll be TOO hard. ^.^v *huggles Howl* OMFGILUVYOUIDIE~!!
Howl: *smirk* And another heart in my grasp.
*.* He reminds me SO much of Trauma, its truly...NOT funny. Dear god though. And, hes voiced by Christian Bale, who is OMGSEXYVOICE! And! Later! I won't spoil this, but theres a guy, who talks, and I go "O_O CRISPIN~!!!" Yeah, I die. And you should have seen me when Sophie got cursed...I was like "O___O OOOOOOOH~~ NO!" Good movie. Goodgoodgood. Favorite. Love much. All must watch. Corrupt the world. Make fansites. I need more Howl. HowlHowlHowl. HOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWLLLLLLLL~!! (and Calcifer~~~ *pets teh flame*) AND DEAREST GOD IN HOLIEST HEAVEN I LOVE WATCHING HIM COOK!! AND I LOVE WATCHING THEM MOVE!! AND I LOVE WATCHING....WHEN HOWL COMES IN IN HIS DEMON FORM! BECAUSE ITS TEH SEX!! FUCKFUCKFUCKILOVEIT!! *goes to watch it....AGAIN*
11.28.05//I Give.
I can't take it anymore...I'm so sick of constantly being badgered by EVERYONE, EVERY, FUCKING, ONE. I'm a failure at life! Okay, I get it! I'm sorry that I was sick for the past GODDAMN month, but that doesn't matter now, does it. I was in such a good mood, you know. I'm not feeling too good, but I'm hopeful that I AM getting better. Now I don't even want to be awake.
10.12.05//Most Deterioration
I'm so cold right now, but again, I'm not bothering to warm myself up. As far as I'm concerned, I deserve it, and no, those words aren't a cry for attention. None of this is, as much as you may fucking think "Yeah the fuck right, Jaime." you can go fuck yourself. Its a blog, I tell it like it is and how I feel, end story. I keep thinking of just saying straight up to my parents, casual as can possibly be while saying such words; "Why don't you just get a divorce?" But then the fear of them actually acting on those words hits me, and I don't say anything.
Then tonight, came another scream fest. Mom commented on how dad was out so late, yada yada yada, dad later starts complaining about how he has no room to himself, which I talked about in a previous post. Then he goes upstairs...and starts SCREAMING...and I mean, it was the kind of screaming, that just made be wanna bawl, because I just imagined any minute the sound of him hitting her. I mean, my dad has NEVER laid a hand on anybody in this family before, you who know my father know hes not LIKE that, but the way he was screaming, and when he was down here, throwing everything around...I was waiting for it...And of course, now that I'm in the basement, I can hear EVERYTHING perfectly clear, so I think my mom went to her bedroom...she hasn't come out since...
And it kills me...because it kills her...She loves him so much, but its just...in vain... And seeing my mother HURT like that, I just...it hurts... I don't know what she'd do if they got a divorce...I don't wanna even think about it...
Tonight we were supposed to be watching Lost together...its our new past time since Friends finished..but I don't think thats gonna happen tonight...Last time it seemed tense, and the conversations seemed stiff, and forced...It feels like since we moved the computer downstairs, everythings deteriorating so much faster...
*returns after watching Lost...alone*
Sometimes, it gets a little hard. To drown myself in the illusions that save me...especially down in this basement thats so cold...I think I know how to make it all a little more numb...but that would mean having to kill my most beloved illusion...I'm not sure if I can do that...Because when I think about it, its a thought that, kills me...And I shouldn't, because that illusion is what puts me to sleep...and what wakes me up...So I wonder if I'm even capable of doing such a thing. Ridding the self of its most important asset...to cut the cold off.
Maybe I'm just a coward, maybe I'm stubborn, or scared...but I know I won't do it. Because I don't want to be cold to anyone...when I'm cold to people...I can feel it too. It feels cold to me...I'm just unsure of how to deal with this...All my life I drowned myself in my fantasies to escape the stresses, so how am I supposed to escape these new ones...? So many thoughts...so many feelings...so few words...Humanity is a fool, for trying to place words on anything a human feels.
9.12.05//Breaking
This kinda bites. I've been doing alot of writing and typing for GD...everyone stresses that I need to go to college, which is something I don't want to really do unless it comes down to that. I told my mom that I wanna write my story and see how that goes, and then this time next year, if things don't look like they're going well, I'll take some English classes. So if I'm not around that much, its because I'm overhauling on that.
To Faithie, you've told me so many times that you feel like "I don't want you around". Thats not it at all. I wanna have lots of fun with you again, but as I said above, I am going to be working, and I'm gonna try to get some sort of job or another. -_-;; Its not that I don't want to see you. ^.^ I think we should set a day, maybe, Wednesday, or another day that you don't have classes that we can get together, go hang out, so at least, if we don't plan anything else, we'll see each other at LEAST one time a week. If...thats okay with you. It doesn't seem like much, but with how much we've seen of each other lately...I think it's a start towards normalcy....is that even a word...?
Anyway...onto more depressing matters. I DIDN'T go to the Renassiance Festival yesterday with my mother as we had planned, because she had a bad headache, and back pains, and other stuff. And since I had been up most of the night, I was a little relieved, but then I realized, no I'm not going to be able to go with my mom, because she works next weekend, and the weekend after that she and my father are going up north. v___v
And, as a reminder, because I'm SURE you've all forgotten, BUT I HAVEN'T. I am STILL determined to get a damn Ed plushie~!!!! *___*O I was cleaning my room and found my Vash plushie and was like "HEY!!" >_> So lol, yeah. ::gonna have to send her mother to one of those college eBay classes::
...and also...I think my family is crumbling. The atmospheres so tense lately...Christian's been so lively, and not to mention NEEDY, so it kinda strains the nerves of everyone, especially...my father. My father is always complaining, and I will admit, he has reason to do so. He has nothing in this house to himself. He doesn't sleep in the same room with my mother because of his snoring, he sleeps on the couch, which is everyones. Everyone sits on his bed everyday. Downstairs we all have our own rack of clothes, and my fathers, is slowly but surely being invaded by all of my MOTHERS clothes, and most of his end up in a pile on top of a box. -_- He, is not, a happy camper. It seems like everyday, its getting worse and worse. Sometimes it picks up a little, but just earlier this week, he got drunk again. -___- He was SCREAMING. Slamming cupboards, everything. I mean, don't get me wrong, my dad is a GREAT guy, everyone knows this, but when hes had a few too many drinks...well...that changes, especially if hes got a bunch of shit he wants to complain about.
Well, on this night, Christian was still awake at, oh, nine, ten, and my father, did not like this. Kerri was getting online instead of dealing wtih her child, who, well, didn't want to sleep, and I was getting in the shower, sitting on the toilet to be precise, writing. You know, cuz thats what I do. So my dad comes in, knocks on the door, and asks if I'm gonna be in there long. -_- Well now that you're obviously counting every second, I GUESS I am. So I wipe the shit off my ass and prepare to get in the shower, while he goes about screaming about "How he can't get mad about that (referring to me getting in the shower I suppose) but then proceeding to scream at my sister, about how he wants to sleep and yada yada yada..." -_- And of course, I'm trying to relax, take a nice shower after a long day, and he comes and is just like "Jaime! Make it quick~" So, I make it quick. -_- Of course, when I got out, my sister wasn't online anymore...so in short, thats another reason as to why I don't get online much. Yesterday, he was SCREAMING at Christian, because the kid was awake at like, eight, per usual, screaming at the top of his high pitched lungs...and dad, was again, not a happy camper. So later on that night, he starts complaining about how nobody does anything around the house and yada yada yada, and my mom was just like; "So you choose to complain about this the day I'm sick, is that it?" and of course, they got in a little tiff, which ended with his saying he was moving to second shift, and mother saying "Bye!" And whatever...all in all, its just slowly breaking. Its a car crash in slow motion.
So, yes. I won't be online at night anymore. Maybe once in awhile, but...I guess at night, the living room is as good to a room my fathers got. And as Rachel and I know, the basements...not really an option. ::glares at child:: In any case, thats about all there is with me for now...fun.
7.27.05//Me, lately...not much.
Well...for the past fucking week, I have sat on my ass, doing little to nothing, save a little here and there, due to the fact that I am to start my period soon, and I HATE waking up (let alone at someone elses house) with my period there saying "GOOD MORNING JAIME!!" -_-; My immune system likes to go on a mini-vacation before I start, and thus, I have a FUCKING cold sore on my lip again, I've broken out, and I am CONSTANTLY hungry, but do you think MY FUCKING PERIOD HAS FUCKING STARTED YET!?!? HELL FUCK NO. ::pissed:: And of course I've pissed Faithie-chan off because I canceled last night due to not only that but the fact that...I actually got some inspiration...to clean my room. Thats right. The Room of Eternal Chaos and Hell is being cleaned. Overhauled. As in, redone. STACKS UPON STACKS have been removed. Theres still alot more to go, because I've run out of BOXES TO PUT IT ALL IN, but we're on our way. ALL my shit, my manga and anime and video games, are currently in the basement, since I've FINALLY got a new shelf to put it all on, which will be going in my closet, and if any of you have SEEN my room, you know that in order to access my closet, one must practically climb Mount Everest. Or, rather, one would probably RATHER climb Mount Everest.
In unrelated news, I finished collecting Gungrave, and am still in awe over the series and its ending. ::cries and continues to adore the damn show::
And in OTHER unrelated news, I finally started playing Star Ocean: The Second Story that Billy let me borrow, and its a VERY good game. ::addicted:: I was up at two, sitting in my room doing nothing, and decided to pop it in, played it for two hours straight. @___@ Such a good game....And then I woke up, and what did I do? Played more Star Ocean. And I sit there, and think... "I really need to go finish Star Ocean 3. And last night, I suddenly had a burst of inspiration to do so, there, at four in the morning, but there, at four in the morning, I didn't feel like going downstairs to GET said game. >__>;;; You can see how inspired I was. >_>;; And then this morning, I had ANOTHER burst, but then I realized, I was home alone, so, I decided to sit in front of my computer and blast music while trying to make scrambled eggs which turned out horrible, so I had to settle for buttered toast and water. As I said, I've been very hungry lately, and theres NOTHING in this house that appeases my taste buds. T___T
But in any case...theres really not much else going on...hopefully I shall be able to go over to Faithie-chan's tonight.
7.22.05//The days don't end...
Well, today was another day. BUT FIRST~!!
I, my friends, bought Gungrave, the anime, a couple of days ago...like...a ton of it...and let me tell you all that this anime, is by far one of the BEST anime I've seen. It is just SO good, unlike RahXephon, it doesn't hurt your head thinking about it, but it sure as hell hurts my fucking soul. Thats right, Gungrave is the first thing in a long while to make me CRY. And when I say cry, I mean, bawl like a fucking baby, so we know its good. Plus, BRANDON HEAT~!!! ::glomps the fuck out of him:: I LOVE HIM SOOOO~!!! ::cuddlecuddlerubrub::
Ahem, anyway...So yea, I highly recomend this to people, especially people who've seen and are fans of Trigun, seeing as its done by Yasuhiro Nightow (the guy who did Trigun) and the music is composed by the same guy too, Tsuneo Imahori. xD All in all, its a VERY good show. ::writhes and flails all over:: I will definately be doing a full review on it as soon as I've completed watching it. xDDD
In other news, today was...well...a let down of a day. Once again, my hopes of going to Great Lakes to get the last dvd of Gungrave, were shot down. Of course, I was pissed, stomped around with an attitude, but of course, didn't say anything. My mom of course kept getting in my face trying to "cheer me up" or...something, and she kept on talking about how she doesn't feel good, and that I have no room to talk because I get sick alot too, she asked "Are you trying to make me feel bad is that it? You want me to feel sorry for you?" and I told her straight up, "No, I don't LIKE people feeling sorry for me.", and one thing led to another, the two of us getting in each others face...and I can't say what I looked like, looking her in the eye (because usually, if I look people in the eye, my eyes have this stupid tendancy to water up, but not this time...to which I pat my eyes on the back) and she got this little condescending look on her face and was just like "Yeah, you don't even care do you, you could care less about it, I don't ever feel good, I have an ear ache, and migraines, and you don't even care. You're just like all the people at the hospital, you don't care."
And I stood there, in my door way...and the thoughts just ran through my head...I was going to tell her...that every single day...I worry...about everyone. I sit there, with nothing to do, but think, is everyone going to have a safe ride home, or a safe ride to work, is Kerri's crazy driving or past lifestyles gonna catch up with her, is Christian gonns choke on something, are the doctors going to call up from the hospital and say dads not in remission anymore, is mom ok at work on that side of Flint, is Rachel ok, is KC ok, is Nicci ok...is grandma ok, shes overweight, so she could have some bad health issues...
But I couldn't say that. I couldn't say any of that because now, my eyes were watering up, so I shoved her out of my room, and screamed at her; "YOU DON'T KNOW THE FIRST THING ABOUT ME!!" and slammed the door in her face. And then I just sat there, and cried. And I picked up one of my birthday cards and found it ironic, because the first thing it said was "You deserve a special birthday..." And then I sat and read the letter that Rachel wrote me a long time ago, and I stood there and stared in the mirror for a long time, before finally going out to apolegize. Said I was sorry, that I was being a selfish brat. And everything is well again.
BUT THEN!! I called Rachel up to tell her we weren't going, and then she called back, and we talked for awhile, and she told me she FINALLY FOUND FUCKING 'Oyasumi...' BY SPEED WHICH I HAVE WANTED FOR FUCKING EVER!! ::WRITHES:: I swear, I heard this song a good few years ago, and fell in LOVE with it...and now, I have it. ::cheers and throws confetti:: And we're going to Great Lakes tomorrow, so all is well~! ^o^v ::goes back to watching Gungrave:: *.* Brandon~...
7.17.05//-_- So its my birthday...
Feels like another normal day in the world to me...moms washing dishes, dads on the couch watching lifetime, and Kerri and Christian are probably sleeping in the back room. Its Sunday, so its a lazy day. Not like we weren't lazy yesterday and the day before. And then my aunt asked if they wanted us have them bring my birthday cake over, or us go over there and get it, my mom just said "I told you I'm not going anywhere." (and I don't think we're in the mood for entertaining guests, because like I said, everyones just being lazy -_-). So unless I change my mind and call them and feel like dragging myself over there (because no ones going to go get my birthday cake without me) I have a cakeless birthday. ^ __ ^ All this, and I just woke up, I can only imagine how the rest of this momentous birthday will be. Not to mention I never got a hold of Nicole...so this will be my first birthday in the last few years without her... ^ ^ I guess that makes me pretty sad...this is quite strange...my eyes are watering...
Not that anyone cares, I'm 18. ^ __ ^;; Don't I sound like a whiny twelve year old? -___-;;
7.12.05//GrumbleGrArgh!
Well, todays is my mother and father's 25th wedding anniversary. So like any day of importance, there was sure to be something out of the usual in our daily schedule. But before I talk about today, I'll talk about...this morning.
This morning before I went to bed, I watched Chrono Crusade. The final volume I own, volume five, until my birthday when I can get volume six, which just came out a couple days ago. ^oo^ Hopefully, though, I can FIND IT. ::will be pissed if she can't:: ::is truly obsessed with Chrono Crusade at this moment:: AION-SAMA~~!! He is SUCH a fun character, and I cannot WAIT to fucking bring him into the FS RP. ::hops up and down:: EVERYTIME I see him, the first thought in my head is: "OHMYFUCKINGGODHESSODAMNAWESOMEICAN'T WAITTOBRINGHIMIN~!!!!!SQUEE~!!!" >_> So yeah. No I am not fangirling. Joshua and Chrono are my preferred men in Chrono Crusade, but seeing as I'm a supporter of Chrono x Rosette, and well, SLIGHTLY (Big emphasis on SLIGHTLY) supporter of Joshua x Fiore, but...I'm not so sure...their relationship is...well, one to watch. ::shrug:: So yeah...besides, Aion, really, is just an awesome guy. ::glomps him:: ^oo^
In any case, quite RANDOMLY the left side of my head started hurting. No reason whatsoever, just started hurting, and I was really getting quite scared because it like, hurt everytime I swallowed, and I thought it might have been a problem with on of my fillings, so yeah, I was really quite scared, and it sent these shockwaves of pain up towards my ear and down my neck...but luckily, it went away by the time I woke up.
So in any case, since it hurt so much, I decided, that if it WAS the filling, well, I'd better stop drinking my second can of Coke, and went to go get a glass of water. NOW. For the past two days, people have been bugging me to wash some dishes...and when I went out there, I understood why.
THERE WERE NO CLEAN GLASSES, WHATSOEVER, NO CLEAN SILVERWARE, AND NO CLEAN BOWLS. NOT A SINGLE ONE. You would THINK if it got THAT bad, someone would have...I dunno..cleaned at least a COUPLE. >__> ::realizes it was her job but STILL:: And it wasn't like I could clean them at that time, because it was six in the morning, and dad was asleep. >_> So, I was going to have to suck down a Coke. ::Sigh:: Oh well.
Anyhow, todays been a lazy day, the only real thing that happened was Kerri...somethings wrong with her (again). Nothing big, but shes complaining how she keeps seeing these flashing lights. My mom was just like "Well yeah Kerri, you spent TEN HOURS on the computer." so I just grinned and said "See, looks like you're gonna have to cut yourself off, computers not good for ya." xD ::then proceeded to hop online::
What really pissed me off about today however, was the fact that my mom called me into her room, and we were talking, and she was like; "You're dad and I were talking about going up north this weekend, and then Kerri said "Well, you know Jaime's birthday is this weekend""- (So you FORGOT? Gee, thanks.) And She was like "Well, so we thought we could take you up with us." and I was just like; "Uh...I don't wanna go up north." and she asked what I DID want to do, and I was like "....I wanted to take some friends to Sagano." -___- So then she proceeded to bitch and moan about how that was WAY too expensive, and I was like, "Well they can bring their OWN money." But NUUU~ "I know I'll feel like I'm going to have to pay, and in the end, thats whats going to happen. It would cost over a hundred dollars to take that many people, when we could just go as a family."
And I'm sorry. But the MOST I've ever had at my birthday dinners, has ever been in the past five or six years, was my family, and Nicci once or twice. Thats it. I'm sorry if I sound like a whiny brat, but I mean, its my eighteenth birthday, and for once, in a LONG time, I can actually have friends with me. I mean, maybe I don't remember that well, but for a long time, all I really had on my birthdays, was my family and Nicci. Sure thats enough, I treasure them greatly, but..I dunno, I guess I can't really explain it, maybe you'll understand what I'm trying to say. ::shrug::
So in short, looks like theres no fucking Sagano. Pissheads.
*ten minutes later*......HEY!! VOLUME SIX AND SEVEN ARE OUT!!!! WHOO!! >.> ::goes back to being angry, yet at the same time beaming with happiness::
7.11.05//Wow...
Kinda funny actually...didn't even realize my birthday was coming so close. I just decided to update my blog, looked at the date and went. .__.; "...huh....wow..." SIX DAYS~!! No, I am not one of those people who sits and informs you of another day to my birthdate, no worries. ^ ^;;
Trauma: Don't let her fool you, she is.
-_-;; Anyway. ::currently working on getting her father to give her fifteen bucks so she can go buy Gungrave:Overdose from Meijers. ::whines and whimpers:: He said he's not going anywhere though, and my sister is definately not going to be going anywhere...and, uh, asking my mom...would be like putting my head under the guillotine and yelling "PULL!!" >_> Or...something... In any case. Theres really not much going on lately. I bought a chain.
*long silence*
Ahem. Yeah. AND! I ended up getting RahXephon with some money my mother gave me a few weeks back, and that series is all together, AWESOME, I definately recommend it to anyone who likes anime, especially if you're a fan of Neon Genesis Evangelion, because from what I've heard (and what I've seen of NGE) its alot like that. Then again, you might complain that its a rip off, but I think RahXephon is better......because Ayato-kun doesn't annoy the fuck out of me like whiny little Shinji. ::kicks Shinji:: STOP FUCKING WHINING. >_> Anyway...
6.14.05//More money gone...
Yup...I'm nearly as broke as I was three weeks ago. Y.Y But I ish happy, for I have bough tons of stuff. I got more anime yesterday, including the entire first season of Magic Knight Rayearth for forty bucks and Gilgamesh Vol. 1. Plus I bought me and Faithie-chan some orange chicken yesterday, which was really good, then we came to my house and watched Gilgamesh, which is really quite an interesting show. ::likes it alot:: And the music is so pretty ::wants to use it:: But I have a feeling Faithie-chan will beat me to it. LOL. xDD MKR is an interesting show...you can definatley tell that its Olllld. They even had all the old previews, including the one for the FAKE anime...which just looks scary. >_<;;
Plus I bought more Chrono Crusade, volumes...3 and 4. That shows just so much fun. ::loves:: ::glomps Joshua, and Aion, and Chrono:: They're all so kawaii~! I must go finish watching volume four...then mourn the fact that I don't have/can't find volume five. T___T Fifty dollars left, what to spend it on...>_<;; Hehee, for my birthday, I'm planning on buying the complete RahXephon series. ::really fucking wants it:: Its only like, sixty bucks at Best Buy, so maybe I'll ask my mom for a couple extra dollars when we go out to buy my cell phone...Or I could take those cans in the garage back...Ah! And then I really want more Gundam Seed. *__* Must get more Gundam Seed...almost done with it, and NO ONE HAS VOLUME SEVEN. EIGHT AND NINE SURE, TEN, SURE, BUT NO SEVEN. -_-;; Bitches... Anyway...my headaches slowly getting worser and worser, so I'm'a gonna go lay down and watch some MKR...ja, minna!
6.08.05//Money, money, going away...
Well, for graduation, I got a hefty sum of money, and yes....the better portion of it has been spent. My mom and dad want me to put some of it away for saving, so I suppose I'll just hold on to the two hundred dollar bills I've got, and spend the rest of the smaller bills (a fifty and two twenties, plus two 25 dollar checks). Plus I have to give Dylan twenty for giving me enough money to buy Chrno Crusade Vol. 2. So what exactly all did I GET with my moo-lah? Its getting listed:
Manga:
Fushigi Yuugi Vol. 5
Fushigi Yuugi Vol. 6
Galaxy Angel Vol. 4
Galaxy Angel Vol. 5
Imadoki Vol. 2
Imadoki Vol. 3
Imadoki Vol. 4
Imadoki Vol. 5
Pita-Ten Vol. 3
Pita-Ten Vol. 4
Pita-Ten Vol. 5
Pita-Ten Vol. 6
Pita-Ten Vol. 7
Pita-Ten Vol. 8
X/1999 Vol. 6
X/1999 Vol. 7
X/1999 Vol. 8
Anime:
Burst Angel Vol. 1
Chrno Crusade Vol. 2
Gundam Seed Vol. 4
Gundam Seed Vol. 5
Gundam Seed Vol. 6
Plus I bought Faithie some belated birthday presents, including the 'Man on Fire' dvd, 'Pilgrim Jager' and 'Ceres' manga, and then I found Sister Princess Vol. 3 on dvd, for SEVEN BUCKS. So I of course had to buy it for her since she's collecting that series.
Then yesterday Rachie and Dylan came over and we watched some more anime, and it was all nice and fun. I suppose I'm gonna finish watching this dvd of Gundam Seed before I write or type some Guardian Demon...though I'll have to take a nice shower... ::hot and sticky:: >_<; ::goes to count the days to her birthday:: @____@ Too many days....
6.02.05//Happy Birthday Faithie-chan~!!
Well, today was....well it was another day. But its also my Faithie-chan's eighteenth birthday~!! Happy birthday Faithie-chan~!!! o^.^v
Anyway, so...once again, my alarm clocks failed to awaken me, and I didn't wake up til 7:30 (also note my mother woke me up) and thusly rushed to get ready for the yeetle event. So I went up to the school, sat down at the table with Dylan and Jason, and ate one of the most sugar-drenched donuts I have ever placed in my mouth in my life. I've felt quite sick for the rest of the day... >_<;; But after that "breakfast", we proceeded to practice for Class Night and graduation. I guess I have mixed feelings about class night. On one hand, it might be fun, we get to get presents and awards and shit, but then, its supposed to be longer than graduation itself. -_-;; What angers me, is that I really really didn't want to go, and I called Dylan up and told him and complained that I didn't want to go, and he told me he'd be by to pick me up later, and that he would call me later to talk about it some more. WELL, I DRAGGED myself around, washed my hair, climbed into this OLD ASS dress (the ONLY dress we could find at this point, which fucking smells like MILDEW -_-;;; Disgusting...its pretty...but smells disgusting...) So I got all ready, and six thirty rolls around....and no Dylan. I look at my phone and it says he tried to call at 6:05...so I try calling him back, and all I get is his voicemail.... -_-;; I'm sure you've all been there before. You know, when you really don't want to go somewhere, but you finally get all ready for it, and boom, things get cancelled. -_-;;
But on the brightside of things, after the breakfast thing, he and I went for a really nice drive out through Davison, but seeing as he had to do some stuff for Skill Center, we had to head back. I laid down and took a nice nap before he came back over a bit before three, and we went, got some money from the bank, then went to pick my Faithie-chan up, and took her along with us for yet another nice long drive....we drove....a nice long ways a way from Flint. I mean, not nearly as far as I wanna go one day, but it was nice nonetheless, to be out in the "boonies". (note, I'm simple comparing these "boonies" to Flint). But yeah, it was a nice day. I've been very tired and lazy, but it was a good day nonetheless, and my story, "Imperfect Perfection" seems to be coming along nicely, or so I think...no ones read it yet, save for the intro and first chapter, so I'll need a second opinion. My first story completely written in the first person view, so its a bit of a stresser. ^ ^;; ::goes to get ready to go over to her Faithie-chan's house::
5.14.05//Getting a move on
As the title says, I'm finally getting a move on. The little archives section is up, but when I save them the dates weren't saved, but they're in order from newest at top to oldest at the bottom.
In other news, I just recently got back from the MYAF (Michigan Youth Arts Festival) and it was....well, hell. I mean, I had a BUNCH of fun, but dear GOD. Since I won an award for one of my poems, I had the honor of taking these workshops where I got taught by this college teacher lady. I mean, she was...REALLY nice, and yeah, it was fun, but I would have much rather spent my time with my friends wandering the campus, because I had SO much fun wandering the campus the first day there with Aaron and Nicole (no, not my cousin Nicole, another girl who won an award). ::sigh:: Now I feel like shart...and I TRIED to take a nap, but EVERYTIME I FALL ASLEEP, GUESS WHAT? IF YOU GUESSED SOMEONE WAKES ME UP, YOU'RE DAMN RIGHT. -_-;; So now I have to go around with this goddamn headache for probably another week. -____-;
In good news, I'm officially DONE with my math classes.
Reloaded
Well, I finally gutted the whole damn thing and got a new layout. As you can see, all previous posts are GONE. No not from existance, I saved em, and will probably make some sort of archives for them soon...I don't have much time on my hands right now, so this is just a quickie "update".
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